I have struggled in my job for the last three years. I never know what I’m supposed to be doing, what my role is, whether I’m doing the right thing. And it feels awful. I keep deferring to my boss who doesn’t want want delegates to me and then I feel bad that I don’t have a lot to do. Everyone is sick of me being in this cycle because I can’t help talking about it and they all say to get a new job. But I know that’s not the answer. I want to do good work and often my ideas to set up processes (which would work better for my brain) is met with resistance (I’m the only employee). I’m left out of meetings and out of the loop with our clients. I’m confused all the time and I can’t remember shit. Just overwhelm all the time. Then I make myself confused that maybe this work isn’t a good fit for me which adds to overwhelm because well, if not this, then what? I don’t know where to go from here.