Work worries


My impossible goal is to make $130k next year. In my thought download, I discovered that I think I can barely balance what is currently on my plate right now – one full-time job and a part-time job. I do see how I have the same patterns in both. I worry a lot about doing things the right way and about making mistakes. I think it is perfectionism. Like if I make a mistake, then I will hate myself, is what I discovered in my thought download. Whoa! Here are a couple of models. Feedback or coaching on these?

UM
C: I work 9-5:30 in a department I haven’t worked in by myself before
T: I hope S will be with me all day
F: worried
A: worry more, don’t trust myself
R: I’m looking for external solutions to my worries .

IM
C: I work 9-5:30 in a department I haven’t worked in by myself before
T: I am going to learn how to do this
F: confident
A: ask questions if I have them, do my best
R: I learn how to do it

I also had this other unintentional model that I interrupted
C: I work 9-5:30 in a department I haven’t worked in by myself before
T: I don’t know how to do this
F: avoidant
A: consider seeing if someone will switch shifts with me,
R: I don’t learn how to do it bc I am avoiding it