You-tube panic

I would like some feedback on this model. I continue to get stuck with the result. As you can see I am not buffering but I do not feel this is a good time to sit and feel my emotion because it creates more tension etc. The thought could be that I will find an answer but not right now and then I would go and do something else with the energy I am feeling.

C Can’t find any of my material on You-tube
T They have deleted everything
F Panic
A Kept trying different approaches to “signing in”
Did google research to try to find answers
Sent an email to work
Sent an email to my son who said he would come in the morning
Not eating although I really want to!
Stomach acid big time
Texted my husband
R Searching for an answer to why this happened.