YouTube fear

I have a YouTube channel and I created it to share my experiences, help with what I have learned and also promote my coaching program so that more people know about it. I have already had some sessions on this topic but I seem to have not completely broken through my fear of being seen. I believe that my fear of a bigger audience stems back to my dads fear of not wanting to be seen. Every time I gain subscribers I am excited but then there is a little voice in my head that says I shouldn’t be doing what I am doing because if one day I have thousands of subscribers, I won’t be able to leave my house because everyone knows me. I would lose the quality of life I have now and be totally depressed. I can see that these thoughts are totally making me play small but I do not know how to break through this pattern of negative beliefs.