Question about my drink plan

I am struggling with how I should be filling out my drink plan, specifically questions 5/6/7….for example it’s Friday, begin doing good all week with having my drink plan as 2 glasses every other night But, it’s Friday, all of a sudden the urges are so intense … Like I want to have my whole bottle. So, I fill out my drink plan for Saturday and it’s for more then what I have been doing…more like what I normally drink. My problem is I don’t know how I feel, or how I should feel before, during and after. Right now in the immediate moment, I am a bit pissed …. I don’t know why I am feeling that way, I have been very pleased right up until.

Do I write what I am feeling emotionally? Physically? And why am I filling out those questions, maybe if I understand what the end game is for those questions I will be able to answer more honestly.

On another note, I am grateful I have found you and this program….I was desperately scared I truly had a problem….at least now I have a plan onhowto handle it….it’s been about a month and it’s just this last week that I have been really trying to sit and understand what is going on in my mind.

Thanks Brooke

Ps….how do I deal with the following situation….drink plan says I will have “x” number of drinks….after one or two I don’t want any more, is it ok to not have the balance of my drink plan?