I am working on it and feel wobbly…


In spite of creating a plan 24 hrs in advance & tracking urges, I find myself wobbling, i.e. not following though (either drinking wine when I said I would not OR drinking more than I planned). Not by a lot, but just enough extra to create shame; worry in me, not to mention disturbed sleep and weight gain.  I find that unless I have a few days of ‘clean slate’ (no drinking wine), my brain chemistry goes awry and I don’t necessarily follow through on my plan.  So I’m clearly not yet unlearning the old conditioning.What changes in brain chemistry occur as the day progresses ; what can I do about it? I notice a pattern of desire to drink around 5-7pm as something in my physiology changes. I don’t wish to call it willpower weakening since it’s a phenomenon that is not present earlier in the day (thus no willpower requirement!) but seems to peak in early evening ….but I don’t know how else to describe this brain change causing desire to drink &relax.  Is there another way to strengthen my resolve? Perhaps using supplements to help with dopamine that may be useful?