I’m questioning myself. How I could differentiate between me really not being a camera person vs. letting my fears and hiding habits dictate this discomfort?

This question came to me after two of the closest people in my life have noted on separate occasions, that once I get really close to exposing myself and my work to the outside world (start making lives, feeling more comfortable on a video and so on), that I suddenly step back and start hiding myself again by distracting myself in other extra ideas on my list.