My confusion


Hello – My circumstance is that I have not signed a new client in 4 weeks. For the entire month of January my intention was to increase my demand. That meant 2 consults per week. Up till now in my business I have attracted clients but I have not attracted them consistently. I evaluated every day what I needed to do different, made those adjustments. I created intentional thoughts every day and managed my thoughts when the negativity was taking over.

As of today I am still frustrated and just did a couple Models on it:

Unintentional Model:
C 0 new clients in 4 weeks
T I’m failing – This isn’t working – I dont know what I’m doing – no matter what I do it doesn’t change anything –
F – small – insecure – stupid – inadequate
A – don’t show up – want to sleep – want to avoid everything
R – no new clients

C Goal for the month of Feb.
T What I do today is enough because no matter what I am enough
T All I have to do is serve my people from my heart
T How do you move forward feeling inadequate?
(I’m only feeling adequate when I’m signing clients. So I’m using a “C” to feel adequate. But isn’t signing clients a measurement of it working? – I’m using if it’s working or not as a measurement of my adequacy of a business woman and of an in demand coach. What if I am developing my business sense in the same way I built my relational capabilities?)
T – How do I feel adequate enough…? Capable? Could I feel capable today?
T – I know what I need to do next – follow my plan. I know I just need to serve them. I trust that I can serve them and they want to hear from me.
F – neutral – calm
A –

The part that I’m stuck on is: (I’m only feeling adequate when I’m signing clients. So I’m using a “C” to feel adequate. But isn’t signing clients a measurement of it working? – I’m using if it’s working or not as a measurement of my adequacy of a business woman and of an in demand coach. What if I am developing my business sense in the same way I built my relational capabilities?)

On one hand creating the result of consistent clients is a measurement of me knowing what I’m doing as a business woman. I know that saying I don’t know what I’m doing isn’t helping, And maybe that’s the statement I need to stop thinking because it’s causing me to suffer.

Any other coaching on this that I can’t see would be great! Thank you!