Podcast drama

Hi there, I have a podcast and I have been dreading to post there because I keep questioning the way I have been presenting my message. I stopped publishing new episodes back in december because my mentor told me to focus on trying to sell instead of producing content. I resent following this advice because now I want to keep producing content but I can’t get myself to do so. I am creating stuckness in this area by blaming endlessly my mentor. I am in total disempowerment to the point I don’t see a way out. What would you adivise to do first? Thank you! xx