Any advice to help me get motivated to work the program?

So I was going to quit scholars this month. I have been a member since November and did the work the first month then got completely overwhelmed by the impossible goal challenge last month and haven’t done anything since, except using SCS to buffer by watching all the zoom calls and checking Ask Brooke several times a day to see what new questions are there. I really do feel like I am just using the program as a buffer and for entertainment, but won’t make myself engage in the process. I have had a major life change this month of my mother moving in to live with me as she can no longer care for herself, and I am sure this has contributed to my lack of motivation. However, when I went in to check the cancellation requirements I found I had missed the deadline to cancel this month by 2 days. So now I’m wondering if the universe is trying to tell me something, and I’m trying to get myself psyched up to commit to do the work daily for this next month and see if I really can make myself get engaged and work the program. I lost 15 pounds in November and December (pretty effortlessly), and consider that a huge win that I was able to lose weight and go through the holidays without regaining any, but I haven’t made myself get back on track with protocol this month and am stalled. I just feel like I have this huge mental block about doing the work. Can you give me some suggestions to move past this? Part of me really believes that if I will do the work I will see the results, but another part of me is like, “meh whatever.” This message is all over the place, just like my brain seems to be. Sorry!