My dare for today: go to an aqua bootcamp at the gym. For context, I am in my early 20s and most of these participants are 50s+. I’m cringing just thinking about it. My mind is in a loop of “I don’t want to go, I don’t want to go, I don’t want to go.”

T – I don’t want to go.
T – People will think I’m weird for being at a class with old people.
T – The instructor and life guards will think there’s something wrong with me.
T – People will think I’m a loser
T – I’ll be so self-conscious that it won’t be fun anyways.

I’m not even ready to think a new thought because I am just haaaaaating the feeling of humiliation (or the anticipation of it). Like I know it’s neutral…but I’m just resisting it so much.

T – why do I have to create MORE negative emotions for myself if life is already 50/50?

My reason: I want to get more comfortable with these emotions so I can make them my friends and I can handle them when they come unplanned.

That reason is NOT convincing me right now. Help!