Depression+hopelessness


I am struggling. I have cut out sugar and flour, now I’m so depressed. I find that now I have no joy left. I think food was really the only joy I had left. I have 0 motivation to do anything else now, and so I just lay on my couch depressed, wanting to buffer, but just feeling lonely and hopeless. I think buffering is all I have known my whole life, and when I’m not doing it, I see I have barely any joy in my life. You think this would leave me motivated to find joy, but it’s doing the opposite. Just sending me in a spiral of negative thoughts. I should also mention I have struggled with depression my whole adult life, and it’s just starting to feel like I will never be able to accomplish anything because of it. I can’t seem to even figure out how to start a model around this.