First week of Monday Hour One

I have implemented Monday Hour One this week for the first time.
I am very good following through with what I put in my schedule.
However, now I feel like my life is a bunch of have-tos. Even the things I should enjoy in theory now become a burden (for example, working on writing my novel). I have to comply with the schedule and I fall into the victim trap.
Also, even though I choose what I put in my calendar, I feel I’m just keeping busy and not really creating the results I want. I want to feel free, productive, and proud.
Can you help me enjoy my second week of Monday Hour One better?