Hard time with journaling this month

Going through the journaling prompts this month has been really hard so far. I’m finding I’m so depressed while I’m writing them.

My thoughts-
Wow, I’ve hated myself my entire life
What if I hate myself forever and end up just like them
I am turning out just like my father
My parents should’ve shown me love as a child
They created such a sick environment

These thoughts feel really depressing and I feel like running away from them. I’m not exactly sure what my question is, just need help processing.