Having Money Protects Me

I’ve been working on my money beliefs this month and have uncovered a belief that feel super true and a model from which I have been working for my adult life.

C: money
T: Having money protects me (from feeling embarrassed)
F: In control
A: I pay for others – don’t split bills, I drive a nice car, if I have money in my purse at all times, worry about spending or not having ‘enough’
R: I try to control and protect myself from my actual experience

I’m not sure of the actual feeling here – safe, protective, in control, correct
Thus it also feel super scary if I think I might lose all my money

It’s the desire to avoid feeling embarrassment that’s underneath it all. It’s connected the ‘money makes me feel safe’ thoughts I’ve been having. Is it just another version of the same thought really?