Holiday with Partner

Unsure about the R here.

C: I asked my partner to look at the hotel for our holiday

T: He doesn’t want to go with me

F: Frustrated

A: Tell him I’ll go on my own, tell him I feel like I’m bothering him, cry, not show him the hotel I found when he asked me to, criticise him, overthink why I am the one to always bring things up first

R: I create distance with him and with me. ??