I feel like I’m falling apart

I started out the year so content, hopeful, and happy and I have consistently feel like I’ve been falling apart. I’ve have days where I feel just utter despair. I’m ashamed of my sadness because I keep thinking, “I should know this.”

Intellectually I know that it’s my thoughts that create my feelings, but I don’t feel like I have any control over how I’m feeling. I don’t want to do anything. I can’t bring myself to do much in my business and I’m not signing any new clients.

I don’t want to give up, but I am struggling to believe I could feel or think any other way.