I just can’t stop buffering

If it’s not one thing it’s another. Biting my nails, eating donuts, picking my skin, drinking alcohol…..

I just skip around from one thing to another. I understand that it’s because underneath everything I do not have a lot of peace of mind and am constantly distracting myself from the restlessness I constantly feel.

Part of me wants to try and take massive action and eliminate all these buffering behaviors at once so I can get through it. I just don’t think I can do it! I can do them one at a time, actually. But I keep flip flopping.

I don’t know why I can’t feel my feelings. It seems impossible, I’ve never been able to do it! I’m afraid that my life will fall apart if I fully feel my feelings, I guess. Is this even possible? How do I even go about doing this?