I want to not want to drink

I am working on drinking less this month. I am tired of all the mental chatter I have around drinking and I REALLY want to not want it. I am struggling with processing the urge to drink which seems to hit right around 5 pm every day. There are days when I resist the urge. Weeks even. Up until about a month ago, I was following a protocol that I felt really served me well. Then I went on vacation and while getting back on protocol in terms of food was easy, I have not been able to stick to my drink plan since I’ve been home. The mental chatter is louder than ever. I really want to not want to drink. I want to have no desire for it at all. My question is about processing the urge rather than resisting it. This seems to be the sticking point for me. I intellectually know the difference but can’t seem to distinguish in the moment. Maybe I’ve been “white knuckling “ it for the past year because the urges are so strong right now. Can you make a suggestion or provide some insight into how I can practice processing the urge? Can you share some thoughts, journal prompts or daily ritual that will calm the mental chatter and help me get extinguish these urges once and for all?