I used to binge all of the time to buffer and go to sleep when I didn’t want to feel sad feelings. I have my binging under control now. I’ve done the work and I just don’t do it. I don’t normally have the urge to anymore. But, when I get sleepy, I have a very strong urge to binge. It consumes me. It’s like I can’t focus on anything but food. If I do eat something, I can’t get full. I’m not eating carbs, so it can’t be flour or sugar that making me not get full. I just don’t know what it could be. I really want to stop because the thoughts because I don’t want to binge again.

When it comes, I can recognize that it’s because I’m really sleepy and can’t go to sleep yet. I know exactly what will put me to sleep if I were to binge, and ironically, THOSE are the foods I crave when I get sleepy. I feel like it’s just habit, but it’s never consumed my thoughts before.

How can I possibly change this if I’m not seeing if it’s thoughts or hormones that’s causing it?