Infertility/trouble getting pregnant

Hi there,

I have 2 wonderful boys, 4 and 2, and my husband and I have been trying for almost 2 years to have a 3rd child. I know we are beyond grateful to have the 2 already. I have gone to dr’s and had lab tests and tried medications, and nothing has worked. I have a lot of negative thoughts and feelings about this, which has also lead me do way too much over-drinking. I have noticed since we haven’t gotten pregnant, I am buffering a lot more with wine, which now I also feel is another problem I have to control in my life! Trying to figure out how to change my thoughts and feelings.

C-I am not pregnant (have been trying for almost 2 years)
T-There’s something wrong with me
A-buffer with over-drinking with wine every night to numb the pain and sadness
R-weight gain, still not pregnant, nothing has changed and I still feel awful about it.