Is Coaching Really Helping?

I am beginning to question if coaching is really helping me or if I need some other type of support– therapy? I have been at this for a few years now and have dabbled in therapy but I am having a hard time shifting my mindset. I look around and see my friends who are not experiencing coaching who are seemingly able to handle their lives with so much grace and ease and are so much happier. Have I opened too many wounds and problems that I can’t solve? Part of me feels like I was happier and better able to navigate life before I starting digging into my stuff. I am trying to focus on the positive, but am struggling to do so. How can I have a more empowering relationship to coaching and/or get the additional support I need? I also work as a coach part-time so this becomes even more disheartening to look at from this perspective. Why can’t my brain just see the good in everything, rather than focusing on the negative and lack of progress areas?