The last question is “what will I do differently next time” and I’m not sure. I had a DP of zero last night, I choose to drink a beer at dinner and three small glasses of red wine throughout the evening when home. I am clear about the thoughts and feelings I chose to buffer with the wine and have insight into what I was going through. But not sure how I’d handle differently next time. It does not seem sincere to say I’d work harder to allow the urge, cause I don’t feel I would. I might actually chose to do what I did – I have compassion for it. I don’t think doing what I did helps me become who I want to be as quickly… I wish I were “evolved’ to the point I knew how to manage differently… but don’t think I’m there yet.