Hi Brooke,
I decided to model out my dread of calling people, specifically my clients. Today, I need to call a few because I need to reschedule our appointments for the Monday holiday. Generally, the client calls I make are about scheduling, but I just hate calling them for any reason, most of the time. I can’t figure out the C line! Everything I think of is some sort of judgement, like “I need to call my clients.”

C:?? maybe, My clients don’t know that I’ve decided not to work on Labor Day.
T: If I call them, they’re going to be annoyed, and they won’t want to reschedule. And rescheduling is such a pain in the ass.
F: dread
A: procrastination — usually buffering with Twitter, or even Ask brooke’s!!
R: I feel worse and like I am not a professional

C:?? maybe, My clients don’t know that I’ve decided not to work on Labor Day.
T: When I call that one client, I really need to talk with her about her overall motivation for the work and determine if she wants to stay with me. I do not know how to have that conversation.
F: dread
A: procrastination — usually buffering with Twitter, or even Ask brooke’s!!
R: I feel worse and like I am not a professional

C: Client cancels for the week because I decided not to see client on Labor Day.
T: I’m not going to be able to pay my bills.
F: deep, deep shame
A: ??? I honestly don’t know.
R:

An intentional model:
C: A client cancels for the week because I decided not to see clients on Labor Day
T: That is their loss, and I’ll have more time for building my new practice.
F: invigorated about making the career changes I am making
A: Focus on building my new practice with clients who are motivated
R: I get a new practice.

But as I’m writing this out, there are about 800 other thoughts and feelings that are all interconnected and woven into this fabric of financial anxiety. I could follow any thread and end up somewhere new. Each model opens up the door to a new model.

What do you think of what I’ve done so far?
Thanks,
Sonja