Model Help with "R’

This is my Model
C: Received feedback for Practium call via email. The feedback includes both positive and negative comments
T: They should’ve told us the specific details on how we were going to be evaluated
F: Upset
A: Ruminating about the negative feedback. Stayed up late thinking about it. Blaming on instructor on not being clear on specific evaluation details. Predicting future failures. Not focus on learning how to be a better coach.
R:I prevent myself from understanding the evaluation details?

Would you please give me some other ideas about the R? Does my R line make sense for this model?
What are some great Qs to ask myself for the after model conversation with myself? Please give me some general tips on questions to ask myself once I get the model and specific questions I can ask myself for this Model.