Not feeling others’ care

I’m sorry. I thought I had a coaching session now, but I’m unable to find the link.
I feel what I am facing right now is that I do not feel the care others have for me – at least sometimes.
I feel alone, isolated, judged. I also then feel critical and judgmental, again alone.
Not feeling other’s care causes me to push them away (I think), and then I am alone.
This the first time I have done a coach question, so unsure how the response works.
Thank you.