Overweight & Hopeless

I am really struggling right now. I feel completely hopeless wanting to lose weight and feeling completely out of control with my eating. I feel like I have to be so controlled to lose any weight at all. And while I know it is not true, I feel like my protocol has to be *way* more strict than anyone else’s for me to lose weight. – Is this possible, or is it the same amount of effort for everyone? I feel resentful and frustrated.
C: Overweight (medical fact)
T: That will never change
F: Overwhelm – I will deal with it later (and permission to binge) OR something to the effect of “I don’t want to miss out, so I should indulge now”
A: Binge, guilt OR restrict, lose, binge
R: Overweight, & guilty and disappointed in myself