Parenting and Coaching

Hi! I’ve been coaching myself on parenting again, which is fine. I will be doing that forever. I’ve done a huge thought download and dissected most of it but there are these thoughts on yelling. I was putting them in a model and I am not able to get past the feeling line. Maybe because it all still fresh. Help!

Why can’t I just stop yelling? What is the point of this thought download if it can’t solve that one thing for me? How can I be a coach if I don’t even know how to do this for myself? I suck. I am failing. Thank you.