I quit my job after I got married to allow my husband to keep his job. I am trying to find employment in a specialized field while also trying to work around my husbands job-preferably staying local or moving to one other particular city to his other branch. I am not feeling motivated to do the studying I need to do in order to be prepared for the interview.

C-I ruminate about not getting called by XXX company that I applied with.
T-I will never find a job that I love that works with husbands job
F-overwhelmed/disparaged
A-stagnation and I panic and dwindle the day away
R-waste time and day is gone

C-I ruminate about not getting called by XXX company that I applied with.
T-Eventually someone will call for an interview even if its not my top pick XXX company
F-motivated
A-spend day Doing scholars homework and studying for interview
R-I am prepared for interview and bettering myself

I am not really believing that someone will actually call me for an interview I guess–I am especially fearful that my preferred company will not call me and we will be forced to move. I possibly need another thought that is purposeful yet believable to me??? Is this where you would ladder to a believable thought? I am a bit stuck

Thank you for your help