Rich and famous

I am trying to wrap my mind around life always being 50/50. If it’s not going to be better there, why do I still want to become rich and famous? Probably I am seeking other people’s approval in order to feel myself good enough. If that is true, then I don’t like my “why” anymore. Do I need to find a better “why” or question if I my desire to be rich and famous is even genuine?