Straight up in the river of misery

I am in the process of making big decisions. I am making them from a place of building the habits I want to build. I have decided where I am growing my business.

And hello river of misery, on missing out on a client. I know this is part of the process. I know I have the choice to say yes or no to this client.

And saying no feels awful.

And I am just in the space of the awful right now and it sucks. My stomach is churning and my heart is pounding. I think me coming here is to just sit with myself as I live through this emotion. I can’t even see my model.