Strong-willed anxious 9-year old boy that doesn’t want to go to school.

The result I desire is for my 9-year-old son who has had trauma and anxiety around going to and being at school for years some due to undiagnosed illness (and is very strong-willed) to go to school daily willingly and without struggles (such as locking himself in the bathroom etc…) And truly for me to be confident that public school is best for him and that I am confident and senior to him and able to support him through his anxiety and keep mine in check.

I go into anxiety and so many thoughts come up about how his dad (who is my ex-husband) will react and what he will say to me and about me, wanting to protect my son, and the fear of “getting in trouble” from the school for his attendance, etc…. “I can’t do this on my own as a single mom”, “I’m a bad mom” etc are some of the thoughts that come up… Thank you!