Unreasonable expectations

I think I joined SCS with unreasonable expectations. I have tried unsuccessfully to get coached by Brooke 6 or 7 times. Yesterday, I was sure she would call my name – and she did. I raised my hand, and she picked another person who shares my name. Intellectually, I get that the disappointment I feel is from a thought. My thought is I joined SCS to get coached by Brooke once, and she’s never going to pick me. This is not a helpful thought to have, and I feel stuck with it.
C- Getting (or not) coached by Brooke
T – She’s never going to pick me.
F – Rejected
A – not utilizing the coaching resources as much as possible
– indulging in poor me thinking
– scarcity mindset
– giving my power away
R – ???