Want to be in love

I have started the program in January and I have been realizing that I have a big lack of self love and self esteem. I think I knew that before but I think I only really understood now that I can change this myself by having new thoughts. It feels good. I think I have taken a big step and I am waiting a bit to be sure that this change is really for good.

One of my goals is to find a partner, but not just a partner, I want to meet a handsome man, joyful, successful, creative, with whom I can talk a lot about anything, with whom I can make long term projects, maybe we could work together, and hopefully have children. I am 39. I have been in love with a man for 7 years when I was 21. Since then I met many men but nothing worked out. Either they did not want to or I did not.

Sometimes I have doubts about whether I can meet this person I dream of or not. I think the work I have done on me will be helpful but I am a bit impatient. I want to be in love so much. I don’t know how to make this happen in my life. Thank you!