Want to buy an iPad but afraid people judging me

I would like to get an iPad for self-development purposes and other things and believe I can use it to improve myself.

C: An iPad is XXX amount of dollars
T: Other people will judge me for spending XXX dollars on something for leisure
F: Anxious and shame
A: Going back and forth between buying or not buying
R: Indecision and resentment; not using iPad for my advantage

Intentional model

C: iPad costs XXX dollars
T: I can make good use of it and it doesn’t matter what people think
F: Empowered and happy
A: Buy the iPad and use it for my advantage
R: Used iPad for my own advantage and became more efficient in life

Any feedback on the model?