My impossible 31 days goal is to follow my MHO calendar 100%. I need about 9 hours of sleep to feel well-rested. I went to bed at 9pm yesterday—an hour earlier than usual because I was tired—even though I had scheduled to sleep at 9:45pm.

Then I woke up at 3 am after 6 hours of sleep to use the bathroom and couldn’t go back to sleep. I was scheduled to wake up at 7am. I laid in bed from 3-4 trying to sleep but just wasn’t sleepy. Then I read from 4-5 because sometimes reading makes me sleepy, but when at 5 I was still wide awake, I decided to get up and start my day.

I was excited because I was getting up 2 hours earlier and could start tackling my day earlier. By 6:30 I had done my morning routine, eaten breakfast, and done my thought work. But by the end of my thought work, I could barely keep my eyes open! So I went back to bed and woke up naturally at 9:30am (after about 9 hours of sleep total).

But now I’m behind my MHO schedule and I’m doubting my actions. Should I not have gone back to sleep? Set an alarm so that I only slept 1.5 hrs to stay on schedule? Forced myself to stay awake until 9:45pm since that’s what I had written?

I’m feeling like because my 31-day goal is to follow my calendar 100%, I should have slept later and woke up again earlier. But then I’m wondering if I’m being unkind to myself by doing that because my body was telling me I needed more sleep.

I’m kind of beating myself up about this, but I know that’s never the point. Can you provide more insight on this?