Hello,
Several months ago I took the time to really be with my feelings. I spent three days experiencing a whole range of feelings and did a whole lot of crying (not always sure why but that was my body’s form of release). On the other side of that I’ve come to realize that I was living without good boundaries and I had chosen many of my friends because they were broken and I could play the helper. I don’t want to play that role and I want to create boundaries.

After that realization, I moved and I thought I moved in with someone who was emotionally mature. However, I was wrong and I don’t like the circumstance but I can’t move so I see this as an opportunity to work on unconditional love. Yet, I’m struggling to find a thought that gets me to a good result.

So here is the model I’ve been living but don’t want to live:
C: Living with someone who prefers not to talk to me. When she does talk she is sarcastic or mean.
T: She is in pain but projecting her source of pain onto me.
F: She should work on herself.
A: Avoid seeing her, avoid talking to her.
R: I feel uncomfortable in the house.

2nd model
C: Living with someone who prefers not to talk to me. When she does talk she is sarcastic or mean.
T: This is motivating me to get my business off the ground so I can afford to move.
F: (not loving) If I can’t handle this, how can I really help others
A: I slow down on my own work
R: My business growth is slow

New model
C: Living with someone who prefers not to talk to me. When she does talk she is sarcastic or mean.
T: She is a human having human emotions.
F: A bit of kindness
A: Avoidance to protect myself but my energy is kinder.
R: Less tension in my body, I have more energy for my own work.

Maybe that is the key. I need to just think of her as a human.