C: cases scheduled at hospital on son’s 6th birthday (these cases pay more than my usual compensation)
T: I want the extra money
A: dwell that I’m missing out on money, tell myself no one else can do the cases when in fact they can
R: waste time, I make my family upset if I were to miss his birthday
C: ” same as above”
T: It’s just money
A; celebrate happily, don’t dwell
Primarily I want the money, and secondarily I feel like a terrible mom for saying I want the money. My husband and I decided I shouldn’t take the job but I want my intentional model to feel true despite still feeling like my unintentional model is pulling on my heart.