Fly by the seat of my pants

I watched Monday hour one and I LOVED it. It inspired me to become even more deliberate about the life that I’m living. However I’m coming up against this belief that I’m a person that flies by the seat of her pants. I realized this this morning when I had the opportunity to schedule my next haircut 3 months out. I felt resistance and thought I can’t do that. I don’t know what’s happening then. This is definitely showing up in my business too- I don’t want to schedule things out in advance, I want to take it as it comes. I want to be spontaneous. I know this was addressed in the video, but I’m having a hard time working past it. I don’t want to create a weekly schedule because I don’t want to feel blocked in. However I also know that this would serve me in my business and the rest of my life. Where do I go from here?