Anna- Why do I fight exactly what I want?

Hello Brooke,

I am thankful for this program, I am uncovering so much, but really not understanding why I am doing what I am doing. I cannot tell what exactly I am fearful for.

In my work I have always wanted to be considered the expert, I want people to come to me for information, I want to be influential. But I find myself overwhelmed by being the expert. I am capable to do a lot, and get angry when others do not help. I want others to have the same amount of drive. When I have so much to do, I wonder if I am the only one that feels the weight of the work – and if it just me, how do I reframe my thoughts so I am able to still accomplish all that I have to do yet without the overwhelm and anxiety. I find myself angry at others for not only coming to me, but also for not following through on tasks, which then leads me back to completing tasks for others. I realize I train others how to ask around me, but I am having a hard time breaking this, I am not sure what I am doing wrong.

Thanks in advance.