I have been practicing allowing my anxiety – and I’ve now finally experienced being able to describe the anxiety, pinpoint where it is in my body, naming it etc. Often the anxiety will subside or ease a bit. This is great, and I’m certainly starting to see a difference here.

The thing I’m having trouble with is figuring out what is causing it. Pinpointing the location and describing it almost distracts me a bit and the anxiety subsides, which then doesn’t allow me to figure out why it’s there or what’s causing it.

I’m certainly now asking myself that question every time – why is it there? But it’s like there’s a block or a wall that’s not allowing me to find that answer.

The other thing is that the anxiety is coming on every 5 minutes or so – in a variety of places and in a variety of forms. It almost feels like I’m chasing it, if that makes sense. It just keeps popping up and then eluding me when I get to the point of trying to discover the cause.

That gets exhausting, honestly. I find myself getting tired of pinpointing and describing and seemingly not getting anywhere with it.

I’m sure part of it is that I might be getting impatient with the process – I see that. But at the same time, I’m wondering if I’m somehow doing something that is still creating avoidance – like maybe I’m avoiding finding out the answers. I’ve spent so long avoiding my feelings that I’m just not sure how to get there and wondering if I’m missing a part of the process here.

Are there any “techniques” or maybe a way that I can take it a step further to get to that answer? Or questions I can ask myself in the moment that are better suited for digging a little deeper besides “why is the anxiety here”.