I can’t seem to get my act together. I’m always feeling behind and not taking the time to work on mapping out my big goals, the actions I need to take and getting them on my calendar. I feel like a slacker. I know I need to just do it…what I’m putting off will only take 30 min to an hour to map out and get on my calendar. I just feel so anxious when I go to do it. I want to talk about how I’m not getting this done when I know I just need to do it. Here are the models I’ve come up with so far about it.

C: my calendar
T: I feel pressed for time…I don’t have enough time to do everything I want to do.
F: anxious
A: I spin I worry I don’t put things on my calendar, I feel awful, I am not present for things I want to be present for, I’m always thinking about the next thing I need to be doing and never settled that there is a time when I’ll do that thing. My kids come home from school and I feel like I need to keep working and I’m not showing up for them.
R: I feel guilty no matter what I’m doing. I always feel like I should be doing something else with my time.

I know its my thoughts, but I’ve been stuck in this spin for a few months now and it totally sucks. Any suggestions? Any new thoughts I could try on?