Thanks for your first answer.
So, we spoke about it before and I told him that this short time that we spend together was frustrating for me and that it was not what I wanted so I was considering to leave . But every time he said “yes yes I know, I have to work on “spending time for you” and I will because I love you so much …” but after three dinners together it went always to the same issue.

And he always says “trust me, when a baby will be there I won’t want him to spend all time with you, I will want him to become a bit as his daddy”. But how can I know that he’s gonna do that. And I am already frustrated that my love doesn’t seem to want to spend time with me, that’s maybe the most painful thought.
So here are three models :

C Boyfriend is gone from 8 to 10 at least 6 days a week, and one week or two, he take time for a dinner together, his day off, he goes golfing or rest behind tv because he says “he has no energy for something else, we took two week end outside together in one year, I asked for it.”
T I might be too boring other ways he would want to share more time with me
F Shitty
A indulging self pity , not laughing about it, finding evidences that I am boring, I don’t this time to make my life being more exciting, being mad at him, not nourishing my personal life with friends enough , buffering with work and sometimes alcohol and cigarettes , also to fit in his world and see him
R I become boring

C Boyfriend is gone from 8 to 10 at least 6 days a week, and one week or two, he take time for a dinner together, his day off, he goes golfing or rest behind tv because he says “he has no energy for something else, we took two week end outside together in one year, I asked for it.”
T Having a baby with him is gonna be so hard
F lost
A indulging indecision, buffering, lot of worries, lot of questions, lot of negative thoughts about him and about myself, not taking action, not moving forward, finding evidences that it’s gonna be hard, being mad at him the little time he is there
R I make our life being already hard

C Boyfriend is gone from 8 to 10 at least 6 days a week, and one week or two, he take time for a dinner together, his day off, he goes golfing or rest behind tv because he says “he has no energy for something else, we took two week end outside together in one year, I asked for it.”
T I would be so torn to leave him
F Afraid
A I stay but I loose a lot of time worrying , I speak to him badly, I don’t arrive to go by myself on holidays, either for a week end, I dream about it at night, I am almost obsess about this question, I don’t really process my emotion, I don’t really find peace to understand what I really want, I don’t arrive to focus enough to coach myself on it
R I’m already torn and I’m leaving myself

Ok, I see those result. I see what I am creating.
I can see intentional thoughts like, “I am always been thinking that I would be torn to leave him” “The time he spend with me has nothing to do about me”, ” It only has to do about him” “I can’t change him and he is perfect as he is”, but for real, I think I have hard time figuring that the C is neutral….
Thanks again.