I am 100 pounds overweight. I feel the urge to start lifting weights. However, I will often stop myself and won’t do it. It’s not that I don’t have the motivation to do it, I just don’t let myself. I think that it is because I feel like I don’t deserve to lift weights. That maybe I deserve to be fat and unhappy.

This is counterintuitive because I understand that lifting weights will help my depression and weight. How do I help myself learn that I deserve to lift weights? What are some other possible reasons I don’t lift weights even though I have the motivation to?