High stakes

I am in trouble. Too much booze, sleep, and procrastination to even describe. I’m stuck. I make okay money, take care of my loved ones, clean my house, etc. It’s like I’m just coasting along and I can’t seem to snap out of it. But, I’m miserable! I wanted to go to law school a few years back and my friends told me “don’t do it!!! You’ll be in debt til you retire!” I’m 51 so it makes sense (unless I find a way to do really, really well!) So, I let that dream go. Now, I just don’t feel like doing anything. I can’t seem to motivate myself unless stakes are high, i.e. an expensive program or degree.

How would you model your way out of this one?

Thanks so much!
Laura S.