I’ve realized that I have a lot of judgement around my thoughts. I also realized that I do all these things don’t make me like me.

For example, wake up and workout at 4:20 every morning, run half marathons, spend an hour doing self coaching scholars and thought downloads, go to work and be an amazing teacher, come home and make sure my kids have what they need, I am getting my masters degree, I eat on protocol 95 percent of the week, and I am within 5 lbs of my goal weight. I have no reason not to like myself.

But I still don’t like me. I know it has to be my thoughts about me. And this is what I come up with for my model. But I am exhausted “doing” all these things and not liking me. I go back to I need other people to like me to like myself, and that is obviously not working! I am so glad I have become of aware of this. I am thankful for that. But now I want a new thought to help me feel empowered/confident and not insecure when I think people don’t like me. But I am having a really hard time coming up with that thought.

C: None of our friends have invited us to do something this weekend
T: Nobody likes me
F: Insecure
A: Numb by over drinking
R: Terrible mood, terrible sleep, take it out on my kids, lose sight of goals

C: None of our friends have invited us to do something this weekend
T:
F: Confident
A: Realize goals and stick with them
R: Reach my goal weight