Hung up on my weight

I want coaching on my weight as it relates to calling myself a life coach.

I am a certified coach, and I coach women on work stress (so not on weight). Last year, my impossible goal was to lose 20 pounds. I achieved it…but then I gained the weight back. I am currently working on re-losing the weight.

My thought around my weight loss is that I didn’t learn everything I needed to learn about sitting with discomfort (hence the weight gain), but I did gain so much practice last year, so I know I can lose the weight and keep it off.

However, at this point, I have moments of doubt about calling myself a life coach because I regained the weight. My brain is offering me these thoughts/questions:

Who will call me a life coach?
Clearly, I can’t manage my mind that well. How am I supposed to help and teach others?

Here is my model:
C: Weight is 140 pounds
T: I can’t manage my mind that well
F: Doubt
A: Spin in my head thinking about how “fat” I am; I am not meeting people and making offers; not thinking about serving my potential clients; not managing my own mind / self-coaching
R: I am not coaching anyone (including myself)

Any feedback on this model?

Currently, I’m working on thoughts that it is okay to be disappointed about my weight gain and that I don’t have to make it mean anything about my ability to help my clients and show them their minds.

I can be a great coach no matter my weight. And I don’t have to be “perfect” to be a life coach. (And since I’m human, I’ll never be perfect anyway!)