Hi! I need some help finding a money thought I believe in. I actually have 10,000$ in my account the most I’ve ever had. I’m trying to fall in love with it. think I might need to start pretty neutral. I don’t believe any of the more positive ones. My model is below:

I have $10,000
It’s gonna leave me
terrified
I don’t take care of it, spend it, ignore it, ignore it, avoid it
I end up spending too much, a lot of it!

I have $10,000
????????????????????
capable (want to feel)
check on it, take care of it, celebrate, look for ways to make more
end up making more, keeping it and taking care of what I have

My problem is that every positive through I’ve thought of or read just feels really bad, I don’t believe it. I tried ‘i have money’ .. like i have a body, but even that feels bad. please help!

Thank you!