My mom has nodes in one organ. Before getting the doctors opinion, I’m reading on medical websites that there is 95% chances that it’s a cancer. And the type of cancer with zero chance of survival.

So I’m here. I cannot sleep. I cry. Watching holistic health video, saying that there are good chances of healing with diet, long fasts, good mood…

However, my mind is racing with those figures: 95%, zero chance…will she be ok after a chemo, she’s so thin and old, and I’ve heard that it can be so hard…

I’m desperate. I don’t want her to suffer, and I don’t want her to die in few months. I love her so much.