Quitting the Quitting Habit

I just joined Scholars in January 2019 and I have considered quitting many times already. This is a lifelong habit that began in childhood. Mom never made me (us) finish something I started if I didn’t want to and enabled all her children out of what she thought was love and protection. So now, many many years later, this is a deeply ingrained habit that has ruined my life in so many ways. At 61, I’m hoping it’s not too late to change this very destructive habit and to finally begin to turn my life in a direction I’ve been trying to move it in since my 20’s. The truth is, financially this is not the optimal time for me to be in Scholars and it could potentially cause me a whole lot more financial distress then I’m already experiencing. But after hearing your podcasts, and listening to you speak, I truly felt that “maybe” this program could help me finally turn things around. I’m not very good at following through either (another destructive habit of mine) so doing this work on my own, without one on one support is going to be challenging to say the least. I can’t make many (most) of the coaching calls due to the times. I’m sick of quitting and giving up on myself and yet it’s what I know and do best. Do you have any suggestions that might help me with this challenge and potentially keep me from quitting yet another attempt at changing “so many” destructive and long-held habits of quitting/giving up easily, not following through, self-sabotage, self-loathing, and a whole bunch more. Feels like so much work and quitting, as you said, gives me some relief for a minute until the realization that nothing has changed and neither will my circumstances and I find the next “shiny object” that promises to “fix me”…and the cycle continues. I appreciate your support.